Dawn - I feel your pain so deeply. I understand where you are and I want you to feel me reaching out to you from the other side - the side where healing has taken place, acceptance has brought peace and forgiveness has released me and my daughter. It is a place you can find, too, and I will be sending you so much love and compassion as you find your way there. Please be gentle with yourself. You have always been the best mother you could be. No one can ask for more.