I can imagine this is very disorienting. It will take time to start new routines that feel comfortable. I used to video chat with my mom every day at 4:00. It took a long time not to watch the clock in anticipation of our call. Many times at 4:00 I thought, “I need to call Mama.” Then I would remember that she isn’t here. But with time, I replaced that ritual with other things.

The photo of Ben is so nice. I know you cherish every one.

Sending hugs. ❤️