Joel - I am glad you are reaching out for help. There is certainly no shame in that, at all. Grief is hard and we can’t get through it without others around us who can support and carry us for a while. You will get through this, and you may have more setbacks. I lost my mom 21 months ago, and just this morning I found myself in tears, breaking down because I miss her so much.
Be patient with the process. Don’t let yourself think you’re on the other side of it, because it will reach back out to remind you from time to time. That’s normal.
Please take care of yourself. You won’t be able to do all the things you want to do to honor Lori if you don’t.
Sending love. ❤️