Remind Yourself How Many Things You Have Survived

You will survive the fallout from the pandemic, too — you are stronger than you remember

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  • One of my children suffered mental illness and was hospitalized several times. When I left the hospital, leaving my beloved child there alone, I came home and lay on the floor, wailing into the carpet. I was more broken than I had ever been in my life. I did not know how I was going to go on living. But I did.
  • When someone close to me went into an indoor gun range and put the gun to his head and pulled the trigger, I collapsed onto the floor when I got the news. All the parts of me that had not broken before were broken now. I did not think I could get up off the floor and go on. But I did.
  • When my marriage fell apart and I lost my house to bankruptcy, I was more angry and humiliated than I had ever been in my life. I lost everything — my marriage, my home, my money, my dignity. I wanted to crawl in a hole and disappear. I thought my life was over. But it wasn’t.
  • When my youngest daughter walked out of my life at 18 and never came back, I spent a year crying every day. The grief and shame felt like more than I could bear. I was being crushed beneath the weight of it. At times I did not want to go on living. But I did.

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